From time to time, we post short interviews with interesting people about their thoughts and feelings on women and drinking. There is such a wide array of perspectives about this topic, and we are excited to gain insight into as many as possible and to share them with you.
Healing comes from looking in the mirror and facing the truth. Twenty-five years ago, when Ester Nicholson looked in the mirror, she saw a broken young woman—a teenaged mom hopelessly addicted to crack, food, abusive relationships, anything to bury her shame and self-hatred. Today, Ester is an acclaimed healer with a breakthrough spiritual approach to the 12-Step recovery process that’s proven more effective because of its integration with empowering divinity-within principals. With her book Soul Recovery – 12 Keys to Healing Addiction (Agape Media/Hay House), she tells her inspiring story and systematically reveals the spiritually transforming process she used to liberate herself from crippling addiction.
Drinking Diaries: How old were you when you had your first drink and what was it?
Ester Nicholson: I was fifteen years old.It was Gin and I got very drunk.
How did/does your family treat drinking?
My entire family suffered from alcoholism and had absolutely no control over the amount they consumed.
How do you approach alcohol in your every day life?
Through my spiritual practice of the 12 Steps unified with Universal Spiritual principles, I have recovered from addiction to drugs and alcohol. Therefore, I don’t approach it at all. It’s not on my radar. As Bill Wilson states, “You will cease fighting anything and everybody.” There’s simply no fight. I’m free.
Have you ever had a phase in your life when you drank more or less?
Drinking was only used as a means for temporary gratification when I was trying to abstain from cocaine. It never worked. I was always led back to my drug of choice and all the feelings of low self worth that were there before I picked up the drink.
What’s your drink of choice? Why?
I don’t have a drink of choice anymore. I’m recovered through the practice of spiritual principles as outlined in “Soul Recovery.”
Can you tell us about the worst time you ever had drinking?
Throwing up is never fun.
Has drinking ever affected—either negatively or positively—a relationship of yours?
No, but using cocaine has. The removal of my daughter from my custody, the loss of my very dignity and pride.
Do you have a favorite book, song, or movie about drinking?
The recent movie, “Flight,” with Denzel Washington is a very real depiction of addiction/alcoholism, as well as realization and surrender.
Why do, or don’t you, choose to drink?
Because I am constantly being restored to a greater sense of my wholeness. It’s simply not a part of my life anymore to drink for the effect of “making myself feel better” or to fix myself. I have been restored to sanity, and continue to be restored.